Billy Mack and the spirit of post-modern christmans

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Christmas is all around me
and so the feeling grows

It's written in the wind
It's everywhere I go
So if you really love Christmas
C'mon and let it snow

You know I love Christmas
I always will
My mind's made up
The way that I feel
There's no beginning
There'll be no end
Coz on Christmas
You can depend

You gave your presents to me
And I gave mine to you
I need Santa beside me
In everything I do

You know I love Christmas
I always will
My mind's made up
The way that I feel
There's no beginning
There'll be no end
Coz on Christmas
You can depend

Coz on Christmas
You can depend

It's written on the wind
It's everywhere I go
So if you really love me
C'mon and let it show
C'mon and let it show
So if you really love
C'mon and let it
If you really love me
C'mon and let it
Now if you really love me
C'mon and let it show

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWjl80WFBzY

Rock & Roll

Every once in a while we may find a movie that is not lost in preconceived notions of what kind of story is marketable but is, in it's own way, true to a less idealized world, closer to home even though it is still fiction and works really well at that.

Prey for Rock & Roll is this kind o movie, as well as "Chasing Amy", "Dark City", "Leaving Las Vegas", "THX-1138", etc. It first called my attention years ago, when I watched it on TV, and it still gets me every time I watch it.

While "Chasing Amy" and "Leaving Las Vegas" are, in their own unique ways, love stories, "Prey for Rock & Roll" is a movie about dreams, about the quest to achieving what we crave for.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-VcwC0Atk0

Amber goes political - Bad Vista Campaign

It's been a while since I've posted anything around here so I decided to do a quick sketch, which turned out not to be so quick. Here we have Amber, Tombs's daughter, wearing a Bad Vista t-shirt. In the original picture she was wearing a stylized rabbit but it seemed more interesting to embed her with some of her father's ideology.

A few character sketches

Below are a few character sketches for the upcoming comic book Telematic Society that I've been creating and writing for months now. I recreated the whole concept from scratch less then 6 months ago and now it seems to be developing better and faster.

Inking exercises

I've picked up a few pencil drawings at deviantart in an atempt to master the damned nib pen. As far as it went, until now, I've managed to get better acquainted with it. I is not as easy to handle as the brush yet but I'll get there.. sooner than later I hope.


Princess Leia - Pencils by Mike Deodato Jr.


Nightwing and Huntress - Pencils by Marcio Abreu

Friar Tuck - Fooling around with technical pens again

As the title says: I've been fooling around with technical pens again. It is just a quick sketch and really lacks... almost everything but as I've posted before: I'll post anything I do, does not matter how bad it is..

Alive

I've always felt that this song describes that postmodern feeling of loneliness that I've felt most of my life.



ALIVE
Chasing Amy

Written and Performed by Joey Lauren Adams


I'm feeling nothing
But all alone
Just missing someone
I don't even know
But until I find him
I'll wait patiently
Just feeling nothing
Inside of me

And where are you baby
Where can you be
Why aren't you here
Loving me
'Cause I wan't to kiss you
And make you feel right
I want to lay with you
all through the night

I wanna feel passion
I wanna feel pain
I wanna weep at the sound of your name
Come make me laugh
Or Come make me cry
Just make me feel
Alive

And so I wait
For that glorious day
When the one I dream of
Comes my way
And when our lips touch
so tenderly
I know I'll feel something
Inside of me

I wanna feel passion
I wanna feel pain
I wanna weep at the sound of your name
Come make me laugh
Or Come make me cry
Just make me feel
Alive

-Joey Lauren Adams

Download Alive.mp3

Super Sexy Girl

It is what her shirt says.. check it if you need.. This one is to my cousin Elisângela. Left her face to ink for last, as it is been a while since I brushed anything and messed it up by not being able to follow the pencil lines. Maybe some other time I'll give it another try..

Caroll

Following my debian-pr, or gud-br-pr some call us nowadays, sketch series in which I've already drew Tombs and Althaser, I've now done a sketch of Ana Carolina Comandulli, better known as Caroll on the #debin IRC chanells at the OFTC network.

Converted Scott McDaniel's site to docbook and pdf

I've always liked Scott McDanil's work and his tutorials at his website. Since the site anoyed me I've decided to convert his tutorials to docbook and generate the it's various output formats. For now I'm publishing a pdf of the content at.

• PDF


• DocBook

Bird Watching

I've been experiencing with technical pens for the last week and this is my first sketch all done with it, no brush or dip pen. It is unfinished but I do not believe I'll ever finish it so I'm just posting it.

The two guys in the picture are Alan, an english bird expert, and Juarez, the president of Eco Education at a natural park in Itapoá, Santa Catarina.

[WIP] Nei Ruffino - update 2

Done some hatching and crosshatching using a tecnical pen (rotring 0.3). There are some good parts but the overall sketch I'm sure I blew. It looked a lot better on pencils.

[WIP] Nei Ruffino - update 1

Just added a background using a toothbrush ink splater. I'm still geting the hang of it.

amber - the colored tombs's heir

I've being trying to get a grasp of how to work with colors for quite a few years but it still seems as black magic to me. This is my latest adventure with watercolors and it shows how much I still need to learn about colors as well as painting.

ps. The scan is really bad because my trusty old scanjet 4c is dying on me so I had to use my new USB scanner for which the sane driver is still alpha quality. As soon as I get a decent scan I'll update it.

[WIP] Nei Ruffino

This is just a Work In Progress post of sketch I'm doing of Nei Ruffino, an tattoo artist who have become a profesional comic book colorist for Zenescope and DC Comics, including Return To Wonderland, Green Lantern Corps, Supergirl, and Superman Batman.

The url to her website is http://www.neiruffino.com/ and to her deviant.art gallery is http://bakanekonei.deviantart.com/gallery/

Tombs

Friendship is a priceless gift. It is always given, not taken. It forms the bounds that link us together as people, as a comunity. It may be a local comunity as it may be a global networked comunity but friendship is the gift that bind us, that gives us the pourpose to still try to interact with other human beings.

Honesty and Courage

We loose so much in our lives lacking the courage to do all the wild things we wish we had done. We, while trying to be nice, lack the honesty to tell people how we really feel. We use excuses to avoid awkward situations instead of building up the strength to handle it. We try to be more than we really are so someone will find us special or, in most circumstances, not cruel.

For a long while I had forgotten how it feels to be really honest and to have the guts to say everything I had to say. To be faithful to my feelings and my values while interacting with other people. For a long while I was afraid of never being good enough and it made me a coward in a sense that I had not the guts to surrender to the urges of my heart. For a long while I was politically correct, and I hated it because there is nothing as hurtful as noticing someone is saying something just to be nice, not meaning it.

Regret. The result of lack of honesty and courage is mostly regret. Regret we had not the balls to say what needed to be said, when it was need. Regret we did not do what our heart and soul shouted was the right thing to do. Regret that we did not mean what we said.

Regret we were not true to ourselves.

The important thing about self-discovery is that after all the frustration of understanding that you were not the person you thought you were. That you messed up and that it is time to accept that fact. To be honest to yourself about your limitations and your screw ups. Honesty and the courage to tell all those things that are not easy to say and even harder to listen.

After the nightmare I found in myself the courage to be honest to myself and to the others. Always.

BTW. The drawing above is a from a picture that I've tried to draw about a dozen times during the last year and a half. I finally got it right.

After the darkest night..

One day I woke up. Not that waking up after a good night of sleep but the kind of waking up after a trance, with that hang over feeling stuck in your head. I stoped and took a long look at my life. Slowly and carefully I noticed how blessed I had been and how much I had thrown away, as it was mere garbage. All the happiness I was blessed with I had discarded, all the love I had been given I returned with anger. Anger. The word and the meaning of it materialized in my life still haunt me every night as I go to sleep.

In a search for the meaning of so much anger and fear I've realized how my mind and soul were sickened for so long. I dove deeper into myself and analyzed my past mistakes. Relived my life and identified patterns of behavior and realized how much I had been wrong on so many aspects of my life and for how long.

Then, in a search for redemption I went after those I had hurt the most, said I was sorry and asked for help. Help to understand myself and my past errors. Help to become a better human being. And I went after all the help I needed so I could get better, not only physically or mentally but mainly as a man.

Now, as I reconstruct my life and myself, I spend sleepless nights sketching of better times, of times of passion and understanding. Now I use the blessings of the past to give me strength to build a better future which could not happen if I had not fallen. I'm finally happy with myself.

Ana

This was one of the first pictures I've tried to draw but never got it right. I was sure I had thrown this sketch away but I've found it today while searching for paper to draw.

Happiness

This is a really powerfull image for me and is also an old unfinished comission to someone really special and who made me understand the meaning of the word happiness. The drawing is just another sketch I made trying to figure out the shapes on the picture since the photo I used for reference is of an awfuly low resolution and the lighting is quite problematic.

Since I promissed to post anything that is finished, even if the end result is not the least satisfatory, I'm posting this one.

The one I drove away

Why do we keep hurting the ones we love the most?



I've promissed myself that from now on I'll mantain a certain consitency with the Free Technologies ideologies and practives: I'll release earlier and more often. And I'll not hold myself in case the end result is not that good. As Thomas Watson said "If you want to succeed, double your failure rate".

She is the one that inspired me to try drawing again and, ironicly, is the one I posted the least. I was affraid of not being capable to capture her beauty. I'm not afraid anymore as I have nothing to loose. I just liked the picture and resisted for a few days before I decided to draw it. Unfortunatly the inking is really irregular with really bad line definition and almost no volume definition besides the shapes themselves. Another time this one would go to the trash can but now I'm just posting it as I would do any other sketch.

Old monoprints

As I was cleaning up the apartment last month I found some old monoprints I did way back during my college days.

Since I'm not have anything new to post here for a while I decided to publish some of them.